Where were you when the titanic sank?

I am assuming something is definitely AMAZING if are were in fact: a survivor from the sinking Titanic, are over 100 years old, know how to use a computer, and you still have the eyesight and wherewithall to READ a blog. Congratulations you lucky son of a bitch. What drugs are you taking? I need to invest in whatever you're doing right.... But most of us readers are not as lucky as the 100 year old son of a gun. For example, I wasn't even alive. I was 11 years old when the movie came out - thanks James Carmmeron. (snickering) When I was 11, my elementary school class decided to see the movie all together. Now that I'm thinking about it, how the hell did they let in 35 eleven year olds into a pg-13 movie? Crazy ass staff... Well anyways...I'm sitting next to my "boyfriend" Bryce. Holding hands was a epic moment. Our pinky fingers barely interlocking were the beezneez then. Legit! But of course everyone is STARING at us because we are holding hands. So we were asked by some snotty girl in my class (Shelly) "Have you kissed?" Me am Bryce have not kissed by that point. Our pinky fingers touching was like first base - are you joking? But because I wanted to "fit in" I replied to stupid Shelly with "yes." So then Shelly (little biotch) asks us to kiss in front of her. Without a moments hestitation Bryce leans in for a peck. Twice in a row. I might have peed in my pants a little. Don't let assholes in your life, like Shelly, pester you into doing shit you're not ready for. Honestly everyone needs a first kiss. I just wish I wasn't taking direction from damn Shelly to make it happen. Oh well... My second was with a guy two years later, also named Bryce. Weird. But that time, it was not on cue, and was unexpected. Screw you Shelly. (there is no actual hate. It's just fun to dog on her in a blog that she will never read). the end

I am doing it.

One of my dreams is to be a teacher or an educator, twenty years from now in the fitness, health and wellness field.  Growing up I had big dreams:  to be the best dancer I could be, and to be in a professional dance company.  Well wouldn't you know it, I did achieve my dream.  Although it didn't turn out like I thought.  I thought I would enjoy it and I would be on cloud nine.  Never did I consider that I would get to my dream, and that I wasn't happy.  It tore me up inside that being a professional dancer didn't make me as happy as I thought it would.

Although I love dancing, it wasn't enough for me.  And that depressed me.  And then I was just depressed in general.  I felt lost without a dream anymore.  I had never NOT had a dream.  It felt weird, empty, and alone.

Some of my friends were (and some still are) off in grad school pursuing their dreams to be teachers, professors, lawyers, and even some doctors.  And inside, I just felt like little ol' me.  I felt that I was deflated and that I needed a spark under my ass to be lit, and to fly me across the state of California, so I can feel what it's like to have that motivation again.  Something pulling me towards a goal.

For a while work did become motivation for me.  I received more education in my field and lit the spark that I can be an even better and informed teacher.  The only problem with dreams, is that you can't live in the "I will" "I should" "I could" world.  You have to live in the "I am" world.  I am doing (add in your dream).

I will be the first to admit, writing down your dreams as a reality is a little frightening.  I have had occasions in my life where I was afraid of failing, but what was even scarier was succeeding.  That meant higher and more expectations of myself.  It meant more commitment.  More drive.  More passion.  More anything and everything.  That scared me.  What are my limits?  Do I have limits?  Can I ALWAYS push myself further?

The answers are:  Dream as big as I want, and there are no limits.  And yes, I can always push myself further.  

So making my dreams a reality, and taking the steps I need to take to make my dreams happen are necessary and required as far as I am concerned.

So watch out world.  Literally.  I am traveling around the world educating students, teachers, whoever wants to attend my lectures feel free.  I'm coming your way by 2022.  And if I'm lucky, I'll be doing it with a smile on my face.