One of my dreams is to be a teacher or an educator, twenty years from now in the fitness, health and wellness field. Growing up I had big dreams: to be the best dancer I could be, and to be in a professional dance company. Well wouldn't you know it, I did achieve my dream. Although it didn't turn out like I thought. I thought I would enjoy it and I would be on cloud nine. Never did I consider that I would get to my dream, and that I wasn't happy. It tore me up inside that being a professional dancer didn't make me as happy as I thought it would.
Although I love dancing, it wasn't enough for me. And that depressed me. And then I was just depressed in general. I felt lost without a dream anymore. I had never NOT had a dream. It felt weird, empty, and alone.
Some of my friends were (and some still are) off in grad school pursuing their dreams to be teachers, professors, lawyers, and even some doctors. And inside, I just felt like little ol' me. I felt that I was deflated and that I needed a spark under my ass to be lit, and to fly me across the state of California, so I can feel what it's like to have that motivation again. Something pulling me towards a goal.
For a while work did become motivation for me. I received more education in my field and lit the spark that I can be an even better and informed teacher. The only problem with dreams, is that you can't live in the "I will" "I should" "I could" world. You have to live in the "I am" world. I am doing (add in your dream).
I will be the first to admit, writing down your dreams as a reality is a little frightening. I have had occasions in my life where I was afraid of failing, but what was even scarier was succeeding. That meant higher and more expectations of myself. It meant more commitment. More drive. More passion. More anything and everything. That scared me. What are my limits? Do I have limits? Can I ALWAYS push myself further?
The answers are: Dream as big as I want, and there are no limits. And yes, I can always push myself further.
So making my dreams a reality, and taking the steps I need to take to make my dreams happen are necessary and required as far as I am concerned.
So watch out world. Literally. I am traveling around the world educating students, teachers, whoever wants to attend my lectures feel free. I'm coming your way by 2022. And if I'm lucky, I'll be doing it with a smile on my face.
I love this post. Get it done, girl. I feel you on the fear and uncertainty of self that comes with realizing that your dream isn't what you want anymore, and then being in the position of having to reassess, and commit to the unknown. I need to rewrite my dreams and set bigger goals. Thanks for this push hi the right direction!
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